October 13, 2008

Where does the time go?

As I gaze at the curl-haired, handsome, brown-eyed boy that is my prince, I wonder where the time has gone. It seems like the past 7 years and 7 months have been an absolute blur.  His baby years seem as if they never existed.

Don’t think me silly.  Of course, I remember his baby years.  How could I forget them?  After all, I was the one raising him… alone.  I’m the one who has the treasured memories.  I’m the one who’s been there for all of the tears… and for the laughter as well.

He was a beautiful baby.  Often mistaken as a girl.  Those curly locks.  Those ridiculously long and enviable lashes.  That smile. {sigh}

I remember how serious Nicholas used to be.  He could stare down the most feared mobster and not even blink.  He wasn’t transfixed.  Meaning, if you moved, he’d continue staring forward.  Not Nicholas. He would actually follow you with the hardest stare.  I used to joke that it was the Sicilian-half in him showing off.  Basically, letting you know, without uttering a sound/word, that he wasn’t the one to mess with.

Nicholas has since dropped the mob act.  Now, he spends most of his days laughing his bottom off at some comical scene playing in his mind.  Oh! To be the fly on the wall of his beautiful mind.

He’s been blessed with my fantastic sense of humor.  Not to brag, but I find myself to be quite amusing.  Like Nicholas, you can rest assured that you’ll find me laughing at absolutely nothing… or am I?

Life rhymes.  We have are high tides, and we have our lows.

Being a mom was something I thought I’d never be, because I wasn’t one for children.  I was the woman who commented on how cute your bundle was, but was thankful the moment you departed.

Cold?  Calloused?  I know.  I was.  No sense puttin’ on airs.  I was a real turd.  There I said it, but I know you were thinking it.  🙂

Like I said, life rhymes.  Being Nicholas’s mom has been the best thing that’s ever happened to me, and I’ve had some pretty cool things cross my path.

I can’t even imagine him not being in my life.  He’s the coolest person I know.

He is the honey, I’m the bee.  He’s the sun, I’m the sunflower.  He’s the… I’m kidding.  I’m sure you catch my drift.

I’m stronger with him in my life. He grounds me, and makes me want to be a better person… every day.

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